goodbyelush

Holding on tightly never worked for me
Show me where the door is cause I'm failing to see
Take your feet out watching you bleed out
I'm the worst at knowing when my curtains been called

On my way out of the dreams I've made
I'm on my way, I'm seeing I was always destined to be

Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

Maybe I'm the champion of being alone

Saving your last glance, burning our last chance
Nothing's gonna stop what was always meant to be

On my way out of the dreams I've made
I'm on my way, I'm seeing I was always destined to be

Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

You can't stop the earth
from spinning under your toes
You can't soak up the sea, just like
you can't stop what you are destined to be

Predictable and alone (for the long run)
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again
Predictable and alone
Predictable and alone for the long run
You should be thankful that I'm getting on a train
that's heading straight out of your life again

someone came and bought the civic tonight. i spent the past six years putting my time and money, heart and soul into it. got compliments on it on a weekly basis, met one of my best friends because of it as well made bonds with existing friends stronger. also got a little feature in honda tuning magazine and learned a shit ton about workin on cars. all in all it was a good run, but the go kart will be missed....


8/15/03 - 10/06/09.

There's got to be more to life than this
There's got to be more to everything
I thought exists

one by one im losing everything ive ever loved.....

i think my car is totaled....

fuck the world
fuck the stars
fuck the person you are
FUCK EVERYTHING.

we found some common interests
through common friends
like sushi and denial of second bests
and we tried again and again
through tarnished promise rings
and muddy promises
is this what you wanted baby?


so was it really meant to be
did it take us this long to see
"baby you mean the world to me"
will we ever know what we need?


i found an answer in a best friend
but the question had changed
from fights that would never end
to the pick i wear to this day
hand in hand we tore each other apart
forgetting that what we had was true in the start


so was it really meant to be
did it take us this long to see
"baby you mean the world to me"
will we ever know what we need?


now all those fucking texts are deleted
and all the flashbacks go unheeded
i wish the best for you my baby
but not better than me
cause better than me is what you might never get
i really do wish happiness for you baby
but not happier than me
cause baby happiness is what you make it out to be
and second best is no better than last for you or me.....


(you have my best wishes now save yourself cause its too late for me)
(you have my best wishes now save yourself cause its too late for me)
(you had my best wishes and you saved yourself but its still too late for me)

and now im finally letting go of the rope that once restrained me...

And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

Letting out the noise inside of me
Every window pane is shattering
Cutting up my words before I speak
This is how it feels to not believe

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe anything.

this love this hate
is burning me away.....

Lie awake, wondering,
If things could have been much different.
Second chance, what's become
Of a friendship if you can call this one?
Stayed in touch, stood behind,
While I gave you space
And you invade mine
While everyone makes mistakes,


You let me down for the last time,
Truth prevails
And theres nothing you can hide.
And I wash my hands of you,
Getting on with my life.


Wanna call and catch up.
But no matter what I know you still suck.
Took the drugs from my friends,
Whatever were you thinkin?
Stayed in touch, stood behind,
While I gave you space,
And you invade mine while
Every one makes mistakes....


And the shit remains the same
It makes no difference
In this stupid world we know.

and i've made goals that i've never meant to break them.
and (they) go beyond the outer depths.
and stranger things have happened since you've been here.
it's been so long since i've seen your face, or even been to this place.
this town was cool for one night.
early july.
childhood friends have all grown up.
and i don't think i could ever remember a time...
that this place felt quite like home.

and i've lived my life with no regrets...
regardless of circumstance or chance i'd have to take.
and stranger things have happened since you've been here.
it's been so long since i've seen your face, or even been to this place.
this town was cool for one night.
early july.
childhood friends have all grown up.
and i don't think i could ever remember a time.
that this place felt quite like home.

I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me hate see?
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad?
You feel sad?
Im sorry HELL NO FUCK THAT!
It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
These lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too remember I loved you!

I've lost it all fell today its all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no.
I've been abused, I feel so used, because of you
i'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no...

I wish I could have quit you
I wish I never missed you and told you that I loved you every time I fucked you
The future that we both drew and all the shit we've been through
Obsessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this too me
Look at what I made for you it never was enough and the world is what I gave you
I USED TO BE LOVE STRUCK NOW IM JUST FUCKED UP!
Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!


Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And your tears are dried up now, you just lay without a sound.
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And my fears are over now, I can leave with my head down........

I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me hate see?
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad?
You feel sad?
Im sorry HELL NO FUCK THAT!
It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
These lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too remember I loved you!

I've lost it all fell today its all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no.
I've been abused, I feel so used, because of you
i'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no...

I wish I could have quit you
I wish I never missed you and told you that I loved you every time I fucked you
The future that we both drew and all the shit we've been through
Obsessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this too me
Look at what I made for you it never was enough and the world is what I gave you
I USED TO BE LOVE STRUCK NOW IM JUST FUCKED UP!
Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!


Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And your tears are dried up now, you just lay without a sound.
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest.
And my fears are over now, I can leave with my head down...

There's a hatchet got a knife
When I awoke there was nothing real in this life
But dreams are so intoxicating, (intoxicating)
When you're doing this alone
Gun, rope, brick on the way
But words have no meaning when its you that says
I really do care, no baby I, I really do care!

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
In a sense gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

Once a skeptic, now the critic
And you think that you finally found a place of your own.
Amongst the cold and timid souls
Where only failure knows your name

Look around for the closest to blame
But look no further than the hands beneath your arms
and now your 6 feet down, buried with,
with your passing fame fame fame fame.

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
In a sense gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

Oh, oh, oh, you lie
Tell me something more than what you tried to hide
If you can't find yourself, then how can I expect to find you.
Oh, oh, oh, you cry
Tell me something more than what you try
The greatest tragedy is not your death
But a life without reason, your life has no purpose
Your life has no reason, your life has no purpose

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
In a sense gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

Fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person you are
None of this will matter if I don't give up folding my cards.

this plan is only surface
and i do not deserve this.
i'm wondering if i'll withstand
to stand alone and stand to scream to the world:
i'm through and now i've come to mend
these wounds that were gored by you through all of them

it's too sad that i've got to mediate these faulty sides of you
and i'm wondering whatever did i do
the only reason that i still remain to you
is i go on repeating the excuse

what if this had not happened?
what if she hadn't gone?
what if this had not happened?
she never would have gone

this plan is only surface
maybe i'm lost in purpose
i've stood alone too many days
and i'm waiting for my day to say to the world
come through with all those promised plans
those years are lost and you've forgotten them


what if this had not happened?
what if she hadn't gone?
what if this had not happened?
she never would have gone

well i wonder if the same
things could be any other way
still i don't deserve this
i've stood alone too long to say

it's too sad

(It starts with)
One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried
so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I
I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Lie awake, wondering,
If things could have been much different.
Second chance, what's become
Of a friendship if you can call this one?
Stayed in touch, stood behind,
While I gave you space
And you invade mine
While everyone makes mistakes,


You let me down for the last time,
Truth prevails
And theres nothing you can hide.
And I wash my hands of you,
Getting on with my life.


Wanna call and catch up.
But no matter what I know you still suck.
Took the drugs from my friends,
Whatever were you thinkin?
Stayed in touch, stood behind,
While I gave you space,
And you invade mine while
Every one makes mistakes....


And the shit remains the same
It makes no difference
In this stupid world we know.

nothing gold can stay.